Some people cannot handle not knowing what life will look like from year to year, month to month. They need to have it all planned out. From holidays to birthdays to vacations, to budgets –for them, 2018 has been planned out since January 15, 2017.
Others, play it more week to week, even day to day, with a spontaneity of go — with the flow.
Having lived more in the second option a majority of my life, and now looking to exist more in the realm of the first option, whenever possible, I find myself struggling with the difference in the mindset between the two and battling who gets the middle. The center. Holy mackerel!
Today, I come to realize, as I lose people in my life for various reasons, including death and differences, I am at a resolve. For today. What I have the power to control and plan, I will embrace that certainty with experience. And what is unexpected, unprecedented, and unrehearsed…well that uncertainty is what puts us all —basically and realistically, in the same boat. I will row, swim, paddle — I will not sink. Not today.
At the end of 2017 I was busy wrapping up a hundred details, tying loose ends as if they were bows on packages, ensuring everything was tidy and pristine. Now 2018 has come and a whole new year lies ahead, a wide-open expanse of time like a prairie covered in snow–it’s beautiful, exciting and scary. It’s the season to leave details behind and to concentrate on the big picture.
I’ve set amazing goals for 2018. One goal is to bring my show THE PASS to London. I’m setting my sights on performing my live show in theaters throughout the UK (where I have a fan base from my hit “Lucky Stars” with Dean Friedman), then throughout the USA. Obviously this goal will have to be broken down into little pieces, like a disassembled stage set, to make its achievement manageable. I’ll do that next week. For today, a day of freezing temps, (NYC) bright sky, brilliant sun and impending snow alerts, I’m going to savor the driving ambition, the sheer audacity of my idea. I can see my name and THE PASS in lights across a large white billboard–and it looks good; it makes my toes tingle.
As we formulate our New Year’s resolutions, which will have to be carried out with sweat, sacrifice and discipline, let’s all take a moment to savor how wonderful it is to dream, and to appreciate the future stretching out before us, fresh as snow, just waiting for our footprints.